"bye bye love. . ."

Hey there blog-o readers!

Didn’t write anything yesterday.  My bad.  I really meant to, but then when I think about yesterday, nothing really awesome happened, except this!

And this!

Got it all in the mail!  Whoop whoop!  That was my ebay shopping spree, one more should still be on it's way. And look at Bug's smile with her new Labyrinth record!  We're redoing her room and we’ve already bought these uber cute guitar sheets and I’ve found her a black comforter with this cute little white design on it.  We’ve got all her Labyrinth prints framed, her one huge Labyrinth poster and then her Goo Goo Dolls collage framed.  She’s always talking about how she loves my room and when she gets big she wants one just like it and I’ve got records sitting around so I bought her her very first one.  . .I wish I had a picture of her face when she opened it, it was priceless!

And I am so in love with my Strangers When We Meet single. . .like ya’ll are surprised right?  lol  And the ‘live’ version of The Man Who Sold The World, sounds more like a remix than something live.  Outside is just kinda out there. . .I know it’s a concept album, but other than SWWM I’m not sure I like much of anything else, although I still haven’t fully listened to it or read all of the ‘Nathan Adler’s Diary.’  I’m off tomorrow and will definitely devote some time to it and let ya’ll know what I think about it then. . .like I’m sure your dying to hear about it. . .

Weight Watchers has been going pretty, hmm, decent?  Yesterday at work, we had our monthly lunch that the shop pays for and we decided to go to Snappy Tomato (which makes pizza) but they had salad on the menu too.  My manager is also on WW so we got a salad and decided to split some baked pasta.  When we get the salad she goes back there to eat hers and is like, “Oh no, Mandy, look at this.”  It is covered in cheese, ham and pepperoni!  Oh noes!  First of all, I don’t like ham anyway, no problem there.  But I so love some pepperoni and cheese.  Yum!  I ended up picking off the ham, red onion, these banana pepper things, some of the cheese and some of the pepperoni, which means I’m basically left with a lot of lettuce and black olives.  I put the dressing on it, some sort of Italian stuff and yuck!  I forced down a few bites and put it in the fridge and told the rest of the peeps there whoever wanted it could have it.  Then I open the pasta and notice my manager has only eaten about a ¼ of it.  It’s covered in tomato sauce and the cheese has been baked to a golden bubbly with about ½ an inch of grease sitting on top of it.  It looked deelish!  Which means it was crazy, insanely BAD for me.  But I did have 3 bites, put it away (very reluctantly I might add) and ate my granola bar and banana I had in my purse.  (Is it weird that I always have a banana in my purse now?)  Not going to be eating anymore evil Snappy Tomato anytime soon. . .Taco Bell is going to be my safest bet if I ever want to eat out again. . .

Today has gone much, much better. . .even if I did sneak a bite of Bug’s pizza.  But I’m admitting it right, so that’s good?  I had a really good dinner; salad, Smart Ones alfredo and broccoli and a piece of bread.

OMG. . .listening the Outside album while I type and it’s so weird!  So very, very weird!  Although I am beginning hear bits and pieces of how it all flows together when listened to continuously . . .and Hallo Spaceboy is just the shit. . .but I’m still kinda weirded out, especially Baby Grace (A Horrid Cassette).  WTF?

Alrighty. . .gonna have me a little snack and watch I Survived laters.

Done now. . .  :)

PS  This blog brought to you by David Bowie’s Hallo Spaceboy.

PSS  This is my fav performance of this song. . .I mean, the man’s being back by 3 drummers!

PSSS  And at 4:12, that’s sexual harassment. . .

"standing in the way of control, live your life survive the only way that you know. . ."

Hey hey my adorable blog readers!

I am in a freakin’ uber awesome mood. . .been on Weight Watchers for 5 days and I’m already down 8 pounds!  Whoop whoop!  *doing the happy dance*  I know it’s probably all watery weight, but I don’t care, I am so freakin’ happy right now!  I was so scared that I wasn’t going to have lost a thing, I was even have crazy weigh in dreams, but it all worked out. . .and I bought me some Bowie.  Two of em!

Instead of rewarding myself for awesome things with food, it is now going to be music. . .can’t wait to see that grow and not me!  Not that my music collection isn’t massive already, this is definitely one thing that I won’t be sad about getting bigger. . .

Stayed for the meeting and there were definitely more people there than were last week. . .the place was practically full.  And it was pretty nice, I didn’t have much to say since it was my first official meeting, but boy there was this little old lady in the back that went off!  She has some anger issues with her Weight Watcher points, it was definitely an Oprah moment. . .but she seemed to feel better when she left so that’s all that matters. . .one sucky thing, my points went down which is what you want but 2 points adds up!  I’ll definitely live though. . .

Tiffers made some deelish meringues today, chocolate and vanilla.  The chocolate taste just like Coco Puffs and the vanilla are like a cookie minus the crunch and more melty.  The vanilla are my fav.

Oh yeah, and I get me a new wallet to match my Alice In Wonderland purse, the best Disney cartoon ever!  Other than The Lion King of course. . .that’s the first Disney cartoon I can vividly remember crying over.

Well, I actually think that’s about all I’ve got to say. . .for the moment. . .done now. . .

PS  This blog brought to you by The Gossip’s Standing In The Way of Control. . .

PSS  This is my fat girl mantra!

"monday, tuesday, wednesday, born I was thursday's child. . ."

Hey, hey my beautiful blog readers!

How ya’ll doing?  Me?  Well, this morning I could have better lets put it that way.  I had this yummy breakfast all planned out, that I made the night before, of turkey sausage and eggs on whole wheat toast with cheese and mustard.  Yum, right?  No.  Not yum at all.  Woke up this morning and my leg was being a douche as usual, so I’m up extra early not only because of my leg, but so I can eat breakfast before I go to work.  Make my coffee, open the fridge and just look at that red Tupperware containing said yumminess.  My stomach revolted.  It started grumbling and jumping and if it could have run away, I think it would.  It was so not having it this morning.  And after that, I just felt like I was going to be sick all day.  For awhile, I thought I was going to be sick in the car on the way to work.  Finally about noon it calmed down.  Luckily I’ve started keeping tiny snacks in my purse (I also forgot to bring my healthy lunch.  Damn you angry tummy for blowing most of my days meal plan!) so I had a little Weight Watcher snack cake with my Diet Rite.  I’ve also got granola bars in there, but this WW cake thingy was chocolate and oh so yum.

When I came home I had a Lean Cuisine spaghetti thing and it was pretty good actually.  I’m not a real big fan of Lean Cuisine, but I bought a couple of those and some Healthy Choice just for something different. . .tonight steak (properly portioned of course) zucchini with tomato and onion (it’s seriously awesome!) and a baked potato.  My tummy is a little rumbly right now, might have me a snack in a bit. . .

I bought me a journal notebook to use for a bit to track my points, we'll see how it works out.  It’s definitely better than that tiny WW 3 month one. . .if it doesn't work out, I’m going to get one from Barnes and Nobles, but I already bought this one and pretty-fied it.

Today in the mail I got a super awesome package from my friend Jamie full of. . .wait for it. . .New Kids On the Block goodies!  Check it out!

OMG!  There are so many goodies in there!  There's books, a song book and like a bazillion NKOTB pics!  Not to mention on the back of some of the poster there is Wilson Philips, Milli Vanill, Marky Mark, Paula Abdul, Vanilla Ice. . .so much awesomeness!  Going to get some frames and add them to my awesome wall of music.  There is a very cutesy one of Jordan in this little red vest that I particularly like. . .

Don’t be jealous that I have all this awesome NKOTB memorabilia. . .but if you are a tiny bit. . .good!  LOL

Ok, done for now. . .  :)

PS  This blog brought to you by David Bowie’s Thursday’s Child.

PSS  How dare you glare at David Bowie?!?  He’s David freakin’ Bowie!  He will destroy you with his mighty high kick!

PSSS  This is one of Bug’s fav Bowie songs. . .

PSSSS  I stubbed 3 of my toes on a stool and said a very long string of very naughty words very loudly that I am very sorry to have said. . .but it really did hurt like a (*^@(&!^#*&(&*#@HJH!&^&^#&#)!*^&)~!&%$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"he can kick like a mule, it's a real mean team. . ."

Hey, hey my glorious groundhogs!

Today Punxsutawney Phil predicted an early spring. . .whoo-hoo! 

http://www.csmonitor.com/USA/2011/0202/Punxsutawney-Phil-2011-will-see-early-spring.-Can-we-trust-a-groundhog

But, apparently the question is, ‘Can we trust a groundhog who couldn't really care one way or another whether or not he sees his shadow?”  Well I am.  I am so done with winter this year.  Seriously.  Done.  Usually I LOVE winter, but this year it just started snowing way too early and just hasn’t stopped.  Plus, not to sound like a senior citizen, but the cold really does mess with your aches and pains and in my case, my back.  So winter, you can go off and fornicate yourself cuz I’m done with you!

Off today, but got a few things to do.  Grocery shopping (eating healthy is expensive!), hair store, laundry, cleaning and keeping track of my foody points is another chore as well.  Tiffers brought us all home WW food diaries last night and I don’t like it.  Gonna just go buy me a notebook to keep it in, with the WW I feel too cramped in it, it’s so tiny!

This morning I just went simple with Special K vanilla almond cereal and a banana.  Yum!  Also, this morning there was some sort of fowl smelling hazelnut coffee already in the coffee pot and it made me sad.  No coffee for me today.  No idea what I’m gonna do for lunch, I’m going to make the WW chicken alfredo tonight for din-din.  The recipe sounds even better than how we usually make it. . .I’ll let ya know how it turns out. . .

So, I’m beginning to believe I have an ebay problem again.  Not good.  Let me begin by explaining my previous ebay problem.  When I got my first job and discovered ebay, I was a Goo Goo Dolls memorabilia/CD/random stuffs/concert ticket buying fool.  Well, one day I had to put a stop to it, haven’t been on ebay in years. . .until this year.  I did all my Christmas shopping online this year cuz my back wouldn’t allow me to walk the stores and stand in line for long periods of time.  So I ebay-ed a couple things.  Then when me and Tiffers started Bugglette’s ,I began buying buttons and ribbon.  Now. . .well now it’s turned into Bowie!buying.  I’ve bought so much Bowie and I just can’t stop!  And if I don’t win this Strangers When We Meet single (Outside album version, Buddha of Suburbia version and a live version of The Man Who Sold The World,) I’m just gonna die!  

I literally CANNOT do anymore Bowie!buying on ebay until I have weighed in on Friday.  Otherwise my reward of a Bowie CD will be pointless. . .cuz right now it still counts, the others I bought before I made that promise to myself, not this single of course (I’m bad I know!), but the others are not deal breakers.  And technically this is a single, not an album so I’m still in the clear right?  Right?  RIGHT?!?!?  Yeah, that’s what I thought.  You can’t judge me!

Well, I’ve gotta jump off here now and get a shower. . .I might be back laters to update my foodiness for the day. . .done now. . .  :)

PS  This blog brought to you by David Bowie’s All The Young Dudes.

PSS  One day, when I’m all skinnified, I’m gonna be able to do that high kick. . .to the face of my enemies!  Muhwahahahahahaha!!!!! 

UPDATE:  The WW chicken alfredo was awesome possum!  One mistake though, because I didn’t really know how to measure ounces, or have anything to measure ounces with, I made too much pasta and it was a little dry, but that just means left overs for tomorrow. . .bought bunches of yummy healthy foods today and a few new Healthy Choice meals I’ve never had before. . .gotta head back out to the kitchen and make my breakfast for in the morning.  I bought some turkey sausage today, never had that before either.  I have had ground turkey and thought it was absolute rubbish!  Yuck, yuck, yuck.  I personally just don’t like turkey anyway.  When I was little my dad used to buy it all the time and put it in Hamburger Helper (which we ate every night my mom had to work with corn and canned biscuits) and it was just nasty.  A few people have told me you just gotta season it right so I thought if I bought sausage with the sausage seasoning maybe I can stomach it.  Mix it with some egg whites and cheese, put it on these whole wheat bread thingys we got and it sounds pretty deelish in my mind. . .

I’ve still got 14 points left.  Might have me a little snack before I head to bed.  Still have quite a few things to do before I can go to bed.

Check out my little Bug watching her David Bowie.  She made a cozy little nook in my bedroom (which I’ve got to pick up) in front of the TV and watched Bowie until she literally could not keep her eyes open.  I finally had to tell her to go to bed, we can finish watching it tomorrow.

Well, I think that’s it for the day.  See ya tomorrow!

PSSS  I won the David Bowie CD, now I don't have to die!

"i miss your soup and i miss your bread, and a letter in your writing doesn't mean you're not dead. . ."

Hey, hey my curious cactuses!

(We’ll get to cactuses later.)

Well, Tiffers lappytoppy be seriously dead so that means no photoshop which means no new blog for me just yet.  *whine!*  But soon. . .that means for now I’m going to have to use this one as a food blog for a bit, so let’s get it out of the way.  First of all, I don’t mean that to sound like, “oh, I don’t care,” because I do, it just sucks that when I was eating horribly I thought about food all day and now that I’m trying to control it, I still have to think about food all day.  *sigh* 

Got up early this morning to eat breakfast:  wheat bread, eggs, cheese, mustard, slice of ham and pineapple slices (which totally made me sad), cup of coffee and Sprite Zero later on, 7 points.  And my belly is full.  I need to eat lunch before I go to work, but the thought of food right now is oh so unappealing.  Last night when I went to bed I still had like 9 points I could eat, but there was no way in hell I was going to put one more piece of food in my mouth for fear of projectile vomiting.

Lunch is already planned: half a can of Progresso light chicken noodle soup and wheat bread, mozzarella cheese, tomato and basil sandwich.  Sounds totally awesome in my head, but my belly is totally objecting at the moment.  Hopefully by 2 o’clockish it will be hungry again.  I don’t get off work until 9 so din-din will probably be a Smart Ones and salad.

And I ABSOLUTELY have got to get a food journal ASAP!  I’ve just been writing it down on notebook paper and I keep losing the damn thing!  GRRR!  Lost it once yesterday, found it and between last night and this morning, I’ve lost it again. . .

Bug got her Labyrinth shirt in the mail yesterday and wore it to school today.  She was super excited this morning to go show it off!

The Bowie pic is from one of her fav songs in the movie.  It's awesome to hear to her sing, "your eyes can be so cruel, cruel, cruel!"  I’m going to wear mine to work today and when she comes home we’ll take Labyrinth t-shirt pictures.

Found me a new sexy Bowie song to play over and over until people hate me for it. . .Cactus.  Yes, when I first seen the title of the song and skipped over it because, “any song about a cactus is gonna be lame,” I was judging it by its ‘looks.’  And yes, it’s a Pixies’ cover, but The Pixies sing it all stalker-like and Bowie sings it like he wants to sex you up.  Llllooooovvvveeee it!  Even though when it very first starts I want to start singing, “I got a little change in my pocket going jingle lingle ling. . .”  (Gonna have to give that a listen today too.)  David Bowie and his skinny self singing it all sexy like. . .I need Heathen now!  But seriously, who is gonna bloody their hand on cactus tree?  That’s just painful and unsanitary and unnecessary and David Bowie is gonna do naughty things with your bloody dress.  As Tiffers said last night, “prance around in it.”  LOL  But I <3’s it.

And have you ever tried to grow a cactus?  I have.  And it died.  My grandmother got me one for my birthday and apparently even though it didn't need water that often, it needed water more often than I thought.  I did really good for awhile then one day it's like, "hey, my cactus all dried up and covered in dust!"  Giving it water then won't help.  Plus it's all prickly with needles (cuz it's a freakin cactus!) and those prickly things are owy when they come in contact with your skin because sometimes you forget it's a cactus and you just grab it.  Don't do that.  Seriously.  Don't do it.  And for goodness sakes, water it!    

Well, I’ve got to eat some lunch and get ready for work.  Done now. . . :)

PS  This blog brought to you by David Bowie’s Cactus.

"i'm standing in the wind, but i never wave bye-bye, but i try. . ."

Hello my gorgeous giraffes!

How ya’ll doing this cold, gloomy day?  Well, in Kentucky anyway.  This weekend was beautiful. . .we had the curtains drawn back, blinds pulled up, even a couple windows open. . .loved it!  Today it’s over cast and gray and cold. . .*sigh*

Well, today started the first official day of the Weight Watchers diet and I gotta tell ya, I’m not starving. . .at all.  In fact, I’m pretty damn full.  This weekend I ‘kind of’ tracked my points.  We joined Friday and decided to finish out the weekend and start on Monday (today) and while I did awesome Saturday, Sunday I blew it.  Saturday when I went to bed, I still had 5.5 points left, if I was counting Sunday, I probably wouldn’t have had any points to eat today! 

Sunday started out bad from start to finish.  I had hair to do and I had to get up early and run out and get some supplies.  While I meant to get up early and eat breakfast, I didn’t.  So while out at K-Mart  I thought, “I can grab some cheese sticks and eat one with my ziti Smart Ones.”  Got a small one, and my friend Heather bought breadsticks, from The Little Ceasars in K-Mart.  Get home, running late of course, trying to get all my supplies together, throw my meal in the microwave and get started on my color.  Heather and I decided to just let the kids have the cheese sticks since they were so small and we’d have the bread sticks.  Well, I steal a cheese stick cuz I’m super starving and because I walked by the table they were sitting on.  *sigh*  About an hour later I eat my meal, it’s cold, and one bread stick and another cheese stick.  Later that night we have chinese food and Tiffers and Chris brought home “this is the last time we can eat one of you in ever’ glazed, chocolate donuts.  Yum!  By the time I went to bed last night, I was so freakin’ full I thought I was gonna be sick.  It was awful.

The worst thing I’ve had today is this mega huge cup of coffee. . .

One cup of coffee with Splenda and 1 teaspoon of creamer is 0 points.  That is probably about 2 cups of coffee with 3 tiny packets of Splenda and about 3 teaspoons of creamer.  I’m gonna guesstimate that it’s more than 0, maybe 2 points.  This morning I was running late so I grabbed some coffee (which I didn’t even get to drink half of) a banana, a granola bar and this WW cake thingy; all together 4 points.  Ate the cake thingy in the car, half the banana at work and the granola bar is still in my purse (we were pretty darn busy!); I ate 2 points.  For lunch I had Progresso light chicken noodle soup, 6 saltine crackers and a 100 calorie package of sour cream Pringles; 9 points. 

Now that I’ve started counting this stuff, when I think about what I had been putting in my body it makes my belly hurt, literally.  We were eating AWFUL.   Today, I feel wonderful.  Yes, wonderful because I’m making a very important lifestyle change, but also because I got my Stigmata soundtrack in the mail today!  Whoo-hoo!!!

It’s got David Bowie’s The Pretty Things Are Going To Hell special Stigmata mix.  It kicks hella ass.  Since then I’ve bought this special edition, Japanese import of Hours that has a bonus cd, all together 27 tracks and guess what, it’s got 3 mixes of The Pretty Things Are Going To Hell. . .oh well, can’t ever have too much Bowie.  I bought this one before I made the promise to myself if I lose weight in my first week of WW I would buy me a Bowie CD, which I still totally plan on doing, so I didn’t reward myself early.

Well. . .think I'm done now. . .  :)

PS  The blog brought to you by David Bowie’s Modern Love. . .I’ve had this song in my head ALL DAY!

PSS  He does the ‘drunk uncle’ at 3:11.

PSSS  It kinda freaks me out that his hair is the same color as his suit.

PSSSS  Tiffers is gonna make me a food blog!  

"love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves. . ."

Hey, hey my blog readers!

Big news today. . .I joined Weight Watchers and am uber excited about it!  Me, my mom and Tiffers all joined together so we’ve got a great support system already. . .all this PointsPlus stuff is a bit overwhelming at first, but once I’ve read all the literature that comes with it, I so got this!  The biggest problem I think I’ll have at the moment is exercise.  I’m very limited on what I can do at the moment because of my crappy back so it looks like it’s only going to be the treadmill for awhile. . .

I’ve already decided too, that I am going to buy an uber cool food journal and an uber cool pen only to be used in my food journal.  I read somewhere this helps because it keeps you interested and your attention. . .I mean, what girly girl doesn’t enjoy pretty stationary and pens!  And Tiffers and I have already jazzed up our little calculator thing with Hello Kitty stickers.  We might even bedazzle it!  LOL

My goal is very small at the moment.  Just make it through the first week, abiding by my target, and if I lose anything, I’m talking a pound here, I’m gonna be ecstatic!  And as my reward, I’m gonna march my chubby self across the mall, into FYE and I’m buying me some Bowie.   So far I’ve just been getting music off itunes and watching on it youtube, but I’m old school, I like CD’s and albums. . .sounds pretty awesome to me. . .and this is what I really want:

And Sara and Summer are supporting me all the way from Washington!  {{{hugs from Kentucky!}}}

So yeah. . .be prepared to hear me talking/whining/screaming/completely over joyed about food.

Randomness that happened earlier.  I had a cup of coffee that got cold.  I put in the microwave for a bit then forget about it.  Heat it back up again and head back to my bedroom to read through my WW books. . .I’ve been out ALL day and my leg is VERY owy so I grab a trusty vicodin, break it in half, pop it in my mouth and grab my cup of coffee to wash it down with. . .only my coffee is hot like the bowels of hell!  It’s liquid hot magma (said in the Dr. Evil voice) on my tongue and I spit the coffee and my vicodin back into my cup.  Now, I don’t have insurance, I pay for all my prescriptions out of pocket, just had it refilled today, there was no way I was wasting that thing.  So I let my coffee cool down and I drank it. . .tasted like pure sin at the bottom, but I wasn’t dumping that down the sink!

Done now. . .

PS  this blog brought to you by David Bowie/Queen’s Under Pressure with Gail Ann Dorsey.  She tears it up!  And Bowie and his one dance, 1:29, cracks me up. . .I love it!

PSS after talking with Tiffers, I think we’ve decided that we’ll just get the food diary thingy through weight watchers and go old school:  put a collage of awesome things on it then cover it in clear tape.   :D  still getting an uber cool pen though. . .